Family can be so complicated. I spoke with my mom to day and it wasn’t the greatest help. I know she’s trying to be helpful, but saying things like “well, maybe you should do counseling, perhaps you’ll work it out, you may never find someone that gives you everything you need, have you tried XYZ.” I felt horrible. Like a failure. I’ve got such a positive outlook right now, but the thought of disappointing my parents is truly unbearable. I was sobbing and not because of the divorce, but because I felt like maybe I should just stay so they won’t think less of me.
My brother is really wonderful right now. We’ve had a relationship where he would mostly call me for support and now he’s got to give it to me. He said he feels like our relationship has made a 180 b/c I’m always the one giving the advice and support. But he fully supports me in this.
I will be okay. I know they will love me. But I do feel like I’ve let them down somehow. It is difficult.