Happy New Year! It has been a rather interesting end to 2011, but I look forward to 2012. I feel optimistic. J and I met a few times for lunch over the last few days. He is heading to a work assignment out of state today and will be there through mid-February. He then will be in Europe until mid May. It is sad. I miss him in many regards. Our meetings have been very amicable and I am grateful for this.
He met with a counselor who specializes in adult children of alcoholics. I hope this will help him. He deserves such a beautiful life, but I couldn’t do it any more. I know there are great things for him in his life as there are for me in mine. This has been one of the most difficult things I have ever done in my life.
And it has given me such perspective on who my true friends are. B and her husband K have been amazing. They have taken such good care of me and support me without judgement. It is a wonder. I’ve also been confiding in a new friend, M. This has been very good for me. My parents don’t really know what to do and my brother is trying to figure it out as well. So, the fact that I have two people that I can rely on is just such a blessing. I don’t know where I’d be without them. They’ve consistently made time for me, listen to me, comfort me, give me perspective, and have helped me begin the healing process.
I’m so grateful for today.