Happy Cinco de Mayo…A day that once celebrated Mexico’s defeat of French troops and that has subsequently been bastardized into a day of drinking and food! Oh well, I’ll take it. My girlfriend B is on her way over and we’re going to head to the pool to do a little lounging, drinking, and eating. I have to say that I am so very blessed to have some really amazing friends. I don’t know what I’d do without them or where I’d be, honestly! I think it very likely that I would have been committed without B’s care of me.
The last few months have been very difficult for me. I feel like I’ve lost, lost, and lost some more and was threatened with the potential loss of one of the most important people in my life… my mom. While I don’t believe in organized religion or the power of “God” with the capital “G”, I am so very, very thankful that my mom is doing well and I’m thankful for the pain and insight this journey has provided me.
Life, as we all know, is a journey with a lot of twists and turns. Sometimes there are more and sometimes there are less, but they will always be there. Life is not intended to be easy. I believe it is intended to be a journey that transcends our physical bodies. There is a religious saying that says something to the effect of, “God never gives you more than you can handle”. I feel that this sentiment is true. I have been put through the ringer these last few months, but I am stronger for it. And I know that the next few months will be similarly difficult, but I have greater insight into my needs and myself to get me through this… insight that would not have happened without all the pain, fear, and loss. One of my favorite sentiments from Buddhism:
Only to the extent that we expose ourselves to annihilation over and over
do we find that within us that is indestructible.
And now it is time to go celebrate my little life by soaking up the warmth of the sun with a good friend.
Happy Cinco de Mayo!